Author: Daniel (---.dip.t-dialin.net)
Date: 04-26-06 05:13
> > I would also fast but I already eat very little. Did Jesus
> > mean that the demon possessed shall do prayer and fasting, or
> > the deliverers? I'm unsure here, but you surely thought this
> > through.
> R: Eating nutritious food is important for you. Make sure
> that you eat wholesome food all the time (this is an
> important part of the ministry of the Salvation Army, for
> example, to people who neglect their nutrition because of
> alcoholism or drug addiction). Christ Jesus was speaking to
> His disciples, and I believe that He was referring to them
> about fasting in order to enhance their prayers, commitment,
> and focus. Christ Jesus, Himself, fasted, and fasting has
> been part of intense and committed prayer among Christians
> for centuries. But, fasting is not always advised. I am
> sure that Christ Jesus would not advise anorexics to fast in
> order to rid themselves of demons that are causing their
> anorexia. Similarly, it would not be wise for people
> suffering from diabetes to fast. I look to God for guidance
> in all things — just as His disciples did when they asked Him
> why they had been unable to expel the subject demon at Mark
I dunno, yesterday I felt like I should do fasting and praying, though it didn't last for a long time. I was just saying, well, if we humans can drive out demons, then God can do that all the time. It was really really surprising. I was laying on a meadow and watching stuff and then I had the thought, or was told, or God made the thought, and it was "I can admire God's Earth, but I must not love man's world", and then I heard an old voice saying, "Don't you feel how it revolves below you?", and really, it was like I felt the Earth revolve below me. Then I was walking around my city quarter, on the street, and didn't know what to do because I was hungry and it smelled so nice from the street cafes and I wanted to eat something. But I remembered to take care and just got myself some water which is allowed in fasting, or? (I remembered you told me so once). Anyway, while sitting around and so on, after a while I heard a friendly voice tell me you can eat something now, and I was glad. I went to a restaurant nearby and wanted to enter, but then I found they sold meat products and I went in and thought no meat please. Then a horrible bad stench came into my mind, and a thought reminded me to what happened to Peter in Acts. And a voice told me and said this place is unclean now, you can't eat here, my unfaith had made it so. I went out and I was unhappy because of the people there, hadn't wanted to give them trouble, but the voice said the uncleannness will go away again. It happened another time at another place, where I again had little faith. It was rather hard, but the third time I managed, though I really had to force myself to eat. Oh, and a friendly spirit told me that I shall say to anyone that God loves me, or, in words, Jesus loves me! And I already did to I think anyone I came in real talk with. It's fun to be a little courage and tell it to anyone and praise God loudly on the streets, it's a lil sad when people respond badly but sometimes I *think* I can see how God does something with people, but maybe it's only the @!#$ expression.
But it's like you said, in contact with God awesome things happen, even in this crooked world. God's the Lord, He has power.
And, by the way, though Christ is God, I think sometimes the Father spoke to me, and this was hard. I don't mean to say it was not Jesus, but that the Father withheld Jesus from me sometimes to make it a bit hard. I mean, I can't go to the Father except through Jesus, that remains true, but that the Father came to me like to the people of old a few times. It is awesome. I just need more experience with staying with Jesus and the Father and not screwing up. But the Father is indeed greater than Jesus, but of course Jesus is always greater than anyone of us, He is tha Lord! Tha King and he rulez! Haha this kidspeak is nice, I think. But perhaps it's a sign that I dun have the real reverence yet.
Oh, and what would you do in this case? Sometimes I hear Christ's voice and I have trouble with my schizophrenia insofar that his voice stays in me and I hear some of my own thoughts in that voice. I tell you, this is very confusing Raphael, and I know God can't like this. It's a weakness, but the mind should be willing like Paul said, willing to loose this. God gives me great graces, but I dun wanna loose the feeling that God is so much greater than me. That I hear my own thoughts in Christ's voice isn't bad, but I am small and foolish at times, and to hear my own foolish little mundane thoughts with Christ's voice, or at least with a voice that reminds me to him, that's not really good, it kinda seduces me and makes me love myself and that shouldn't be.
> There is no such thing as too much prayer. God tells us (1
> Thes 2:16-18): Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in
> everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ
> Jesus for you.
> The prayer without ceasing means to have contact with God in
> all that we do — to realize that He is right here, ever
> present — to walk always in the light.
> R: Yes, it is time for the devil’s minions to be sent
> packing. Enough of this!
Indeed, that would be great. Today in the morning I remembered God and could understand how the hebrews felt when they prayed God to protect their entering and their leaving, to alway be with God. Though, I must admit, I sometimes yearn for a simple life like a hebrew commoner had, to be in God's Earth .. but then I realize this isn't humility when God offers me the life of a saint in Christ's sense, and doesn't want me to stay behind in a false humility, false in the sense that God doesn't want it for me this time.
> You say:
> > I also went to church, just some minutes ago. I've been told
> > that the pastor will be back here on Dresden on the 30.4.,
> > then I can talk to him. I don't know if he has the gift of
> > authority over demons, but that will be the start. Maybe he
> > can look for me and pick a good deliverer whom he knows has
> > had success with this kind of thing.
> R: Good. But, maybe there is another pastor whom you can see
> sooner. I trust and pray that God will direct you.
It's a little weird, when I seek someone it seems they're never available right now, I always gotta wait and have patience.The world is crooked, but I trust the christian intention, they are my brothers and sisters and when they can help, they'll do.
> You say:
> > The devil's demon always tries to mess with this
> R: Exactly! That is why the devil is known as the opposer of
> Christ Jesus.
Yes. I think one of his problems is his optimism, the devil's problem, he can't shake it, he always thinks he can make it. That he'll somehow find a way out of his prison. The times when the events of The Revelation take place -- they will be grim indeed. Life as a christian must be hard then, but I rejoice in God sayin in the Revelations "... if it were possible" .. meaning the seduction of the elect, as it isn't possible.
> You say:
> > I felt such a sick fire in my mind
> > while the devil tried his stuff, such cruel hatred.
> R: The devil hates God, and he hates us for loving God. But,
> he is a defeated foe. We know the end of the story — Christ
> Jesus has overcome him.
Yes, he has.
> > When the world seems beautiful, God makes it so, I think,
> > the world isn't good, and Christ really meant it when he
> > that we shall not love it.
> R: God’s creation is awesome, and there is beauty in it as it
> reflects His majesty. What God has told us is not to love
> the creation instead of the Creator, and not to love the
> “things of the world” against which He has spoken (which is
> sin). The “world” loves money, the “world” promotes
> selfishness, the “world” is under the power of the very evil
> that you have experienced first-hand when you describe that
> “cruel hatred”. But, Daniel, until God withdraws His Spirit
> from the earth, and raptures His people out of here, there is
Yes, we must turn to God, and then God shows us how the Earth is His, whenever He wills it, and then we can be content in it, without loving it more than God. Then it just becomes our space. And then we have cactusses in our homes that get really old and still bloom :). Just like the blooming tree I saw yesterday, God making anything good. No wonder my dad likes nature, and I hope one day he'll be converted too, I will badger him now at all times when we talk.
> > I am getting some solace in the thought that I am
> > understanding a little in what way I can differ between the
> > most cruel demons, if I have more than one which I pray to
> > God isn't the case.
> R: No matter the number. Christ Jesus cast out “Legion” with
> a word. He can flick them out with His little finger. (Luke
> 11:20): “But if I cast out demons with the finger of God,
> surely the kingdom of God has come upon you.”
> > Thank your for your prayers, Raphael, and today in the
> > morning I heard a voice which seemed light say that I can
> > tell you anything, so I am not afraid that I am telling you
> > the wrong things.
> R: You don’t need to tell me, Daniel; tell Christ’s disciples
> in Dresden. They are there; they can lay hands on you. They
> can confront unclean spirits directly. They can join
> together and surround you with the power of God that Christ
> Jesus has delegated to His disciples. They can counsel and
> stand with you. They can do what I cannot at great distance.
Yeah I know. But christians come in various ways. To tell the truth, I would like to meet you some day to tell you of something that happened. It may be valuable, it may be necessary to forget, but I wish I could tell it to someone, it is an argument for God's grace. His indulgence, so to speak, but I think it requires some serious strength to handle without being deceived by it. I trust you could handle it. Ya know how that goes, everything requires faith, and I would not want to give my story to someone of weak faith.
> > I sometimes wondered why Christ said that
> > those who do evil do not come into the light, cuz when the
> > evil ones can't come into the light, how can they be
> > forgiven? I trust I can always confess my sins, that's good
> > and the opposite of evil.
> R: The demons will not be forgiven; it is too late for them.
> But, to Christians, God’s Word says this (1 John 1:9): If we
> confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our
> sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Yeah, confession is paramount or we never get a fresh start. I'm so glad God doesn't remember our sins anymore since Christ, or since Christ's death on the cross, I think that may be what Christ accomplished there, that God the Father doesn't remember our evil deeds anymore.
> > ...then I heard a voice in that spirit say "Ich
> > will dir Nachsicht gewähren auf allen deinen Wegen" .. and it
> > was a beautiful and warm voice which I have heard before, and
> > I am completely sure, meaning I want to believe in this, that
> > it was God, both there and before, when He was strict with
> > me. I have heard this God a few other times as well. An
> > uneasyness overcomes me, this is one of the deep things and I
> > better treat it as a mystery before last nights madness
> > overcomes me again. Such is the stuff I deal with, and I
> > humbly ask for your help and I am thankful for every
> > prayer.
> R: (2 Peter 3:9): The Lord is not slack concerning His
> promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward
> us, not willing that any should perish but that all should
> come to repentance.
> Hang in there, Daniel. Trust God. Get yourself into the
> presence of mature disciples of Christ Jesus, and stay close.
Yeah, the maturity. I think God wanted to help me there in the past a few times. Some years ago I wanted to go to the university to tell my story to a professor, hoping it could help humanity understand, but a young student secretary wanted to get me instead to a circle of people seriously interested in christian spirituality and end times prophecy, but I never went there, I was the kind of person you knew me as here and as such, I wasn't ready yet.
I think there is value in teaching to always try again, it's good to be sad when God leaves because that means we haven't done right yet, but we always gotta try again and plead God to not reject us and to show of his goodness again and to remember us and to try things again and so on and so on. The hebrews knew that when they wrote their songs, to always get around and gather, to always pray again despite having sinned, and to listen to the messengers God sends. Goodness, how big is Christ, to have made this possible. He is God!