Author: M.Kirsh email@example.com (---.dsl.lsan03.pacbell.net)
Date: 02-14-03 02:04
am a biochemist-unemployed since graduation. I walked, road alone in solitude, a whole fraction of the United States and Mexico for the last 17 years. If I write like I am on the defensive, I am!, because it appears I write that way. I am not heard because I speak that way. and life goes on for anyone who refuses me because it appears that way. If a combined picture of the impressions of they themselves,my self and the world, of those I encountered were to come to life there'd not only be a regression to prerenaissance conditions, a tryanny upon the will, and death/abortion vs birth, but a resurection of all the past problems, diseases, and plagues of nature already conquered. I am not employed the same, by greed,and the endeavored failings of these inventors/employers of ways that go unnoticed in this modern world,and bring life to the possible existance of such an enduring, vivid breathing painting of trickery and deceipt.
If I need money ,sustainance, It is the desire and accomplishment of these pirates I do not have it.
If a possble means of fund for these pirates is the inevitability of nature over man, the insignificance of the individual, the authority of men who know larger amounts of death, altered interpretation/altered presentation/understanding/(failed understanding) of written word/scriptures or a simple failure in assumption concerning times/places/events/ and the actual application of old words-they they have funded themselves. A society that lives where it always rains could have words in their vocabulary with one meaning only instead of two (or visa versa) as opposed to other places.-where a slang can be ordinary/standard/accepted/correct and only that way in one place and not another- and provide a haven of activities for criminals who be beyond suion one place and not another. Once ,a person, I was told an ordinary thug from Maine appeared, at first, to myself, very well spoken and accomplished.
My biology thesis involved a detection of a genetic base found only in RNA message molecules which are very inpermanent/short lived. I also noticed that the structure of the molcule itself was analogous to life itself-symmetrical-had a head and foot-a little lopsided-birthed and died in a small period of time compared to the life of the cell and the DNA(passed on to offspring genetic material) and that the molecule was not found in the DNA and I could not detect any despite te fact that the molecule if left in a beaker on a desk in the laboratory without help/experiment spontaneously could transform itself in to a molecule that is found in the DNA...This meant to myself and other that it might have somtehing to do with identity. Though I now think this is a gross understatement-that it has to do with the existance of life itself-in example the birth of identity and the birth of life. I also noted that these words the birth of life and the birth of identity cannot be thought of as separate things. If a person thinks deeply he can conclude that every thing we know, even thinking and knowlegde itself, has a name. And that having a name means there is nothing else with the same exact name or identical person evern if a twin. And to extend this further that the world is nothing but a place of unique different things/reflections/matters/energies grown of one indivisable one unique thing. This fact is evident in all of mans activities and thought despite the fact that we create divisions and definitions ouselves that do not really exist.
For those who ask what right do I have to be-must I pay for my being or earn it, or those thinking the world an overwhelming place in which I(self) am second and insignificant-Of this there is only GOOD NEWS . That in these reflections of uniqueness, the importance of things,the short lived-transient,things that are continuous (with all the possible shades in between)(less for scientific description and definitions used for classification only).... that there is only good news-that all there is and everything there is, starts and extends from a unique unit one(such as yourselves) and the rest is man made construct and by definition always second to the short lived individual of which it comes from-and was created of and by(even if it seems vast and greater than yourself). That even of great deaths, the vulnerability of large masses, and mass deaths- most of our human troubles are of and begin with humans and are created of mind set,greed and profacy-are self punishing and self caused.
That though, no paradise may really exist we need not, by the action of our own selves, build/construct an opposite on this earth,that is less than that automatically god-granted in a package deal with the gift of existance.
Do you belive in the heavy hell and brimfire of mans suffering. You might find, him(man) a little comical despite his hell/suffering and world terror-just as a preview of the world today and the high priority call to arms and hostilities and war (that comes in a package deal with welffare, missionaries-claimes of I didnt do it, knowldge of whose did though assumned anywhere to any suspect(or who did what?)(or what was done?)-- All to solve individual problems derived from a problem of pregnancies,births,miscarriages of important parts of our human lines-and as our paradises or gains are threatend/aborted by attitude and action-so are parts of our lineages when we take to high power high prioity weapons.and aggresive-offensive problem solving. You cannot read my mind obviously or the places I traveled not be threatened with pirates with hands into world transmissions and communications., can you read the mind of a politician/ruler leader or general at battle to know without assumption the basis of his thinking/assumptions in converstion and it's UNSPOKEN MEANING.
In example, a soldier or army can step down on the soil at a place-and at the same time the population there suffer changes/death /troubles -and join in conversation with the soldier thinking that the topic and the soldier's beginning reason for his visit(a foreign trouble) are the current conflicts and reasons of communications.(The natives all thinking collectively of something different which doesnt reveal itself even with the restricted assumptions of a theoretical astrophysicist in communications)). A society could exist that only knows rain all the time and in conversation this fact might never be revealed ,having grown into the culture and language. A leave this world functioning to a moving image of two parties discussing always separate topica and never meeting minds. It is almost the point that mother nature is demanding an non aggressive, non adventurous approach on earth . A simple ordinary house fly eats inexpensively,is one of the oldest long lived species on Earth, has the largest gonad to body size ratio of all species and rarely wonders from his den. I suspect in some cases from cultural and language differences it would be impossible for a vistor and his hosts mind to meet exactly much less solve a problem.
When I traveled the streets of America-need handouts I found two types-looks like he needs food/shelter-"here's food, shelter" and the other type'-whats you name, what do you think,?/do you believe?/ where are you from? or"whats todays time/date""can you count backward from one hundred-with referals and funneling to doctor /counseling/food/shelter-appropiate agencies where not only my trouble lurked, but accrued an estimated/unpaid public debt in the millions of dollars for a problem requiring a small fraction as much expenditure. If you went to a voting poll to chose an ancient self indulging pirate/criminal as a leader or myself...?(your MINDS vote for the food directly in front your noses, supplied, stolen and poisoned by pirates the town before, than your MIND OVERRULED BRAINS vote for my transparent, ordinary self.
Marvin Eli Kirsh firstname.lastname@example.org